Hi people!
How did your holidays go? Did you eat a lot of food and enjoyed some quality time with your family and beloved ones? I hope you did. Unluckily I didn't (and probably some of you may have noticed by my very depressed polls and my lack of enthusiasm about holidays and stuff). Fact is that I had some problems in my real life and one of those was a super badass flu which knocked me out exactly during New Year's Eve: I swear, I slept for a couple of hours that night after dinner and got up very tired and in pain just because my family insisted for opening a bottle of wine at and eat panettone at midnight while all I wanted was to curl in a corner and die. Uuugh.
Plus the fact that my holiday themed activities (a scavenger hunt and a Secret Santa) didn't have much success didn't help my mood.
By the way, as the title says, I have some updates for the ones who actively follow me:
1) My cat Kadaj, the joy of my life,
will go through surgery to have a tumor on his muzzle removed. I really hoped surgery wasn't necessary because he is getting old, and even if Kadaj is still a kitten at heart he will have to be put to sleep to have this mass removed and of course he will have to recover from the injury. But the mass is getting bigger and I'm afraid it will just be harder and more dangerous removing it if we wait any longer. I'll bring him to the vet for the operation Wednesday and I'm very worried I will see him for the last time. Please keep him in your prayers.
2) For my work at the community service I'm OBLIGATED to leave from 24th to 27th of January with my colleagues in a place in the middle of nowhere to learn I don't know what about organizations for helping people and civil protection and I'm 99% sure I won't bring my computer with me because my laptop is hella heavy and I'm a dinosaur so I don't use mobile phones with internet, sooo... I won't be online for that period of time. I'll try to take some photos or draw so I'll have something good coming from this break at least. I'm not very enthused but I'll try to survive, even if I hate sleeping with other people I don't know well: I cannot relax and be myself if I have roommates, because I feel like I'm being watched the whole time and cannot recharge my batteries. Wish me good luck!
3) Speaking of my work... I like 99% of my elder colleagues and the community service colleagues... but there is one who actually pissed me off since the training period. He basically made the alarm 'MANIAC!' bell ring in my mind in the same moment he opened his mouth to speak to me... and since then it only got worse and worse. I swear, this guy barely talks with anybody -he always stares at his phone, even when he should be supposed to work- and when he talks he clearly tries to talk only to me. He KNOWS I'm in a serious relationship, HE IS in a relationship... and yet he keeps being creepily interested on me and takes too many liberties. He is pushy, meddler and when I try to ignore him he literally keeps calling my name over and over again until I have to reply 'WHAT?!?' I call only him by his last name and in a cold way and he didn't get how much I despise him! He is an idiot.
I'm not exaggerating because I'm mad, I swear his mind is slow, closed and almost empty. When I told him I was agnostic he literally didn't get what that word meant and asked me if I was a smoker. And he WAS.NOT.JOKING. He knows like 30 words, doesn't read and doesn't get basic English, and he is younger than me. Plus we barely knew and he managed to insult me in many different ways, making me feel old, fat and a chatterbox. NOT a good start, and if he courts like that I really wonder what kind of woman would be interested on dating him.
I would bear with all of this, because I'm a professional person and I know at the workplace I don't have to like everybody... but problem is that he doesn't get what 'personal space' means.
Every time we are in the same room and he is in a zone and I turn my head after a while I find him beside me. I swear. EVERY. DAMN. TIME. And he always has an excuse for staying too close to me, like charging his phone while I sit at a chair and he gets too close. I swear, he gets so close that I can tell his breath stinks. A lot. Horrifying.
And for the whole December I literally told him every time he got too close to leave me some space, and in a very clear and aggressive way. He just doesn't get it. I had a small panic attack at the idea of being with him for four days and not be able to come back to my home whenever I wanted. I talked many times to our superiors about this situation, but they almost made fun of it, like 'Oh, he is in love!'. It's not love dammit, this is STALKING!
I cannot keep saying 'get the fuck off' or 'mind your fucking business' every ten minutes, it ruins my always optimistic mood! But having him always too close for my comfort is freaking me out. So I talked again to my superiors, and this Friday I hope he learned the lessons because not one, not two, but all the THREE of them talked to me and after I explained the problem they asked him to come to talk to them in private. I wasn't there at that moment, but I really hope they kicked his ass and made him understand he has to leave me alone.
I already had to leave my previous job for sexual harassment and I need the money from this activity, and I cannot beat the crap out of his shitface... but right now I'm pretty worried. I really don't want to go anywhere with him, especially for days and I feel like all my alarms 'DANGER!' ring in a situation like that...
What can I do? This four days thing is obligatory, but I feel sick just at the idea of being in the same of place with this creepy idiot for so many hours: I feel disgusted and angry by his presence after 6 hours in a day, how am I going to feel after the fourth day in a row?
I'll need a ton of stress balls, and I already have been using one because of him.
Please help: have you ever dealt with a situation like that? What should I do?
Thank you and sorry for the vent. I usually don't burden you with real life my problems if I can, but I always feel like you are my friends who listen to me and sometimes advice me so... thank you for being here for me, I love you.
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